new account. paralyzedx3 [add it, pls.] :D

Okay so. I'm sick of shit like this:

1. Fakes.

2. Jeffree Star fans that dont listen to his music even

3. Your favorite band: you havent listened to their old music

FAKES:

Okay so. You know that everyone doesnt like a fake, right? Well. Have you ever thought about WHY they decide to fake their pictures or just be a complete fake all together? Well, i think its because of the people that are so FUCKIN shallow. And they wont be friends with someones whos 'ugly' or 'fat' or something. wtf. And the internet is the place where you can be anyone you want. So, dont be SO FUCKING SHALLOW and pick friends for how they look. =

JEFFREE STAR FANS: Have you even listened to JStar's music?

Okay so. A lot of people lovee Jeffree Star. But! Have you even listened to his music? Or are you just liking him because other people do? Or, just because of how he looks, or hows hes 'different'? I mean please, I have gone through myspaces of people, and they have Jeffree Star in their heroes section, and i'll go through there music and KABLAM, no Jeffree. I mean, geeze, if youre so obsessed with him, why arent you listening to his music? I'm just saying. wtf.

YOUR FAVORITE BAND: Have you listened to their old music even?

Okay so. Pretty much everyone has a favorite band. Right? And theyre all "OMG! I LOVE [bandnamehere]! THEYRE AMAZING!" Well, i'd hope that you have listened to their old music too. :] And have at least ONE or TWO of their old albums. [This doesnt count for bands that have just came out, and only have ONE album out] You cant be serious when you say theyre your favorite band and you have only listened to their new stuff. It just bugs the shit out of me. I just wanna strangle them and tell them to go fking listen to their old music and come back and tell me that theyre your favorite band then. =/

Okay so.

I just wanted to say that. =/

<33

squee.

i love that lyric.

=DD

im bored.

x[[

and im still sick.

and have to go to school tomorrow.

already missed 3 days this week.

and i had a social project due today.

and i havent done SHIT.

=/

im screwed now.

yayayy.

and my friend just made my other friend upset.

and im pretty much forced to take sides.

=/

ARGH.

motherfuck.

=D

eep.

so happy.

i was supposed to go to a party tonight.

but couldnt. cause i didnt have a ride.

and i didnt feel good earlier.

but then i felt better.

and still didnt have a ride.

and everyones at the party.

BUT BUT BUT.
JAKE and JEREMY are coming to pick me up. =D

eep. i love themm.

now i dont have to be stuck at home.

YAYAYAYAYAYY!

okay, just a random journal. -.-

lmfao.

i love how im practically failing two classes. =/

so. if i seem to not be on buzznet/myspace for a while. you'll know why. =]

x[[ i hate school. urghurghurgh.

and i hate pretty much all the people i go to school with. =/
they pretty much hate me so much.

just because of.. umm. eh. i dont know. =/

blehh. i miss Tylerrrrr!
i know, i say that at least some point in time for like. almost every journal.

but i miss him lots and lots. D=

yeah. this journal was pointless. =D but oh well. im bored.

i lovee when Stel  sings to me.

=D

eep.

it makes me smile.

;o

i love that boyy.

miss him.

D= had to move back to the UK.

I didnt think that was too cool.

he was born in the UK.

and then he came to USA.

and then moved back to the UK.

not cool.

I miss him.

at least i get to hear him on mic. x]]

Fuck.

Im done.

Donedonedone.

I made a big mistake.

A mistake that might put me somewhere where I dont wanna go back to.

I dont know what to say.

I dont give a shit what anyone thinks about me anymore.

So say whatever you want.

Ughh.

I miss Travis.

I miss him sooo much.

More than anything.

I cant stop thinking about him.

And if you looked at my shoutout, and hes not there, well theres a reason.

Ask, Ill tell.

I miss Tyler more than anyone that is gone right now though.

Oh Tyler.

I wish he could come back.

But he moved to California.

And I never get to talk to him anymore.

At all.

Maybe once every 4 months.

Wow. Thats fanFUCKINGtastic.

Im fucking tired as hell.

I can never fall asleep.

I get 3 hours of sleep at the most now.

I hate it.

Fuck.

I cant afford anymore mistakes.

But its not like Im not gonna make anymore.

I make about a thousand everyday.

I feel sick all the time.

And theres nothing even wrong.

Omg how I wanna go to California to see Tyler.

I miss him soo much.

I think about him a lot now.

Cause we used to talk everyday. And now we never do.

The song that Im listening to makes me think of Jake.

And then this other song makes me think of Tyler, and I cant listen to it, it makes me cry.

Cause it somehow brings back so many memories.

The memories make me smile so much.

My parents would never let me go to California to see Tyler though.

Ugh.

Im gonna stop thinking about him.

Now.

Ugh.

Im pretty much dead if my parents find out about my 'Mistake'.

But it was an accident. A complete accident.

I dont wanna go to school, ever again.

Nothing good ever happens again.

Just makes me more stressed.

sghlksjdhlksj!ufhldkjhdkj!dsfhgljk!

This is to my friends. [Only the ones that Ive known for the longest, and have been the greatest to me]

You guys mean the WORLD to me.

Jake -
I can't begin to talk about how wonderful you are.
I have known you for so long.
You've always been there for me.
You make me so happy, and you make me feel so good.
Every moment I have with you, I'll never forget.
The cuddling on cold nights.
The cute kisses we give each other.
The inside jokes.
The laughs, everything.
I honestly love you more than anyone.
And havent felt this way about anyone other than you before.
I will never let you go, ever.
I never can.
You make me laugh.
I can never stop smiling when I'm around you.
You have never let me down.
I'll always be there for you, like you have for me.
'I Love You' are strong words, but I DO love you.
I trust you with all my heart.
I think about you constantly.
And I couldnt think of anyone other than you,
To spend every moment with.
I will never leave you.
I promise.
ILoveYouJake.
More Than Anyone, and more than Anything.

Emily -
You have always been my best friend.
And always will.
We have had so many memories.
We have so many inside jokes.
Like...
Bag.
The pope.
Mr. Queery.
SUUSH!
Loaf.
Chuppy.
Chumpy Humpshit.
And many more.
And laugh about everything.
We always get over our fights easily.
We have lots in common.
Ive known you for a long time.
Me and you are ghostbusters!
Chyeah mann!
ahha.
You're awesome Em.

Jeremy -
You're the greatest.
My lufflelumps.
You make me laugh so much.
You give some of the greatest hugs, ever.
I hate fighting with you.
You are completely awesome, seriously.
I promise you Jeremy,
I will never let you go.
You keep me together in one piece.
You're one of the reasons I'm still here.
Me and you have tons of nicknames.
I know that you'll always be there for me.
Youre a great friend, honestly.
That will never change.

Chelsey -
You've been a great friend,
Always will be.
I'm sorry for all the shit Ive done to you.
You never deserved it.
I hope to never lose you as a friend.
You're so funny.
And you make me laugh so hard.
You know where I'm coming from with a ton of things.
Ive had many laughs.
many many.
You are awesome.

Geoff -
You crazy motherfucker.
Iloveyou.
You're the best!
Ive done many stupid,
But fun things with you.
Holyshit.
I can be real crazy around you.
Cause you're the same way.
You're MY cutieface.
And no one elses.
You're fun to jump around with,
And look like an idiot.
Im coming after your ass,
If you go serious on me.
It wouldnt be cool.
=D youre awesome!

I Love ALL of you guys.
Youve been there for me the longest.
And theres something different about each and every one of you.
And I love you all! COMPLETELY!<3

=]] (talking on the phone with jakeee.)

Me: mm. go fuck yourself.

Jake: right now?

Me: yeah sure.

Jake: mk. how long?

Me: long.

Jake: do you want me to do it over the phone?

Me: no. im too tired.

Jake: fine then. bitch.

Me: iloveyou.

Jake: mm. i love me too. cause im sexy. what time is it?

Me: 9:11 *LAUGHING SO HARD* OMG! 9:11! MICROWAVES!

Jake: *LAUGHING SO HARD* OMG! MICROWAVES!

Why microwaves?

because. 2 weeks ago. i was at his house. and we were making nachos. and i said "be a rebel and put it to 9:11" and he was like.. "Okay" and when he pressed start to make the nachos cook. and stuff. we jumped up and down clapping. "YAY YAY YAY!" =D

Oh. And.

I wont be on as much.

why?

-School

-Friends

-Social life =O

-Jake. ilovehim. and wanna be with him MOREEEE.

-and others that i cant think of

-Oh, and cause buzznets gayy. =] YAY YAY YAY.

Me, Jake, Em, Kelli, Nolan, Chelsey, Chris, and Jeremy went to the Grudge 2 tonight. =]]

I just got back home practically. ;o

We all almost got kicked out.

We were making sooo much noise. we were in the front.

The secruity guy or whatever had to come down and tell us to shut up, or else we'd be kicked out.

And when he got done telling us that we would get kicked out, everyone else in the theatre started clapping.

=//

but it was fun. =D

and if you didnt knowww. Chris and Chelsey moved back! =D yayyy.

Chelsey and Chris are moving back! =D Hell yess.

theyre coming back tomorrow.

and I made something for Chris.

[Theyre just lyrics]

Chris,

Hey, I think youre cute
Would you like to be my new best friend?
We could talk for hours or just lay in bed
Youre just the kind of kid I could grow old with
So wont you walk with me to the park up the road?

And I just laughed
And asked if you'd like a cake
Or some sort of assorted beverage
From the diner up the road
If so, you should walk with me
Feel free to hold my hand
Feel free to kiss me on the cheek
Even though I'd,
Even though I'd prefer the lips<3.

imissyouchris. and ily.

[[Friends only everyone, friends only]]

These are just lyrics, i didnt make them up.

But I had him listen to this song. and he said he liked it. xD yeahh.

Finally.

Things are looking up now-a-days.

Me and Jeremy are friends again. =D

I'm starting to get all my friends back.

I'm going to be able to go to Jake's either Friday or Saturday. =]] That makes me happy.

Chelsey and Chris are coming up to town this weekend. And next weekend. x]]

Yayyy.

Butttt.

There are always the down points of it all.

Likeeee:

My grades are slipping real bad.

I just got an F on my Science Quiz.

My parents reallyyy dont want me to go to this P!ATD concert.

I found out Marissa lied to me.

My parents arent too fond about my grades either.

Jake reallyyy wants to get back together, and I dont know what to say.

I'm horrible at choosing. Yes, or No? I wanna say Yes. But then again, I wanna say No. gfljkf

=/

Eh.

Hopefullyyy things will get majorly better. =]]

I Miss Jeremy!

he was always my lufflelumps.

i was always his hugglelumps.

[our nicknames for eachother, we made them for eachother 2 years ago].

he was my shoulder to cry on.

i was the person he would hug forever when things were bad.

he was the one that made me smile.

i was the one that always made him giggle.

he always wore my t-shirts.

i always wore his boxers over my jeans.

[whenever i went to his house id always bring a extra shirt of mine for him to wear, and i always wear his boxers over my jeans!]

he said we'd be friends forever.

i said that i'd never let him go.

he always had a special place for me in his arms.

i always had a special place for him in my heart.

he always told me i was something special.

i always told him he was one of the greatest friends.

he always said that he'd be there for me.

i always said that nothing could tear us apart.
___________________________________________________________________________

i miss him so much.

it was all my fault.

i said something i shouldnt have said.

i didnt keep my promise.

but he practically always kept his.

he was a better friend than i ever was.

i should just face it..

things arent ever gonna be the same again.

there really isnt much of a point on coming on here anymore. theres only a few reasons why i come on here.

i have better things to do[notreallybutstill]:

1. Fix my friendship with a couple people

2. Actually concentrate on school

3. Hangout with my friends more [cause theyre real important to me, ilovethem]

4. Be happy.

those are some things that i have thats better than coming on buzznet.

about the 4th one, buzznet.. yeah.. it kinda makes me real unhappy. cause theres so much drama.

sometimes i get happy when im on buzznet, it depends on who im talking to.

if i left, i would miss a few people though, specific ones.

i wouldnt miss everyone. no, and thats not being a bitch when i say that.

its not like you'd miss EVERYONE. you especially wouldnt miss people you havent even talked to before.

k, im done.

hell yes. :]

i am so glad i dont actually look like that. xD

i just lost my friend, Jeremy. x[ fuck.

i know, short journal thing. stfu.

well you see. tyler moved. and we used to be able to talk on msn. but his mom took away the internet. =/ and i get to talk to him every 2 months, once. =/ And he went on his friends computer. and got to talk for like only 15 minutes. and this is all we got done:

My mom's in the hospital right now.

In the emergency room.

She woke up not being able to breath.

So my cousin took her to the hopsital.

My dad couldnt cause hes too drunk. Like always.

I feel bad cause I'm not worrying or anything.

Maybe I'm a horrible daughter? Who knows.

Probably.

=/

[Its about myspace, pretty much]

ONE
W.A.K.E.U.P.
There is NO SUCH THING as a MySpace tracker.
It does NOT exist. So quit
posting stupid bulletins like
"OH-EM-GEEEEE this WORKS!!!"
No, it doesnt.

TWO
To the people who have like
25,000 friends, are you serious?
You're stupid.
Go play in traffic.

THREE
Don't ever post pictures and say
"OMG, I'm so ugly"
"OMG, I'm so fat"
because if you were, you wouldn't post them.
And if you do you're a freaking mongoloid.

This one I LOVEEE...

FOUR
Nobody cares about threats over the internet.
Don't try to act hardcore with the keyboard.
Fighting online is like racing in the special olympics;
Even if you win, you're still retarded.

FIVE
Quit crying
Beacause you're not on someones top 8.
Who the hell cares?
IT'S FKING MYSPACE!

SIX
Who really gives a fck if
I don't accept you as a friend?
MOVE ON!
Don't send me another request or message asking
"what's up with you not adding me?"
I don't want you as a friend,
That's what's up!

SEVEN
Little 6th graders who have MySpace
And look like sluts, and act like whores
Go somewhere else
Because nobody wants you here.

EIGHT
If you have decided to read this,
You are a true MySpace Friend.
Real friends read their bulletins.
[This one really doesnt make sense, since i didnt put it in a bulletin, and put it on here]

NINE
I say you go and pass this on
And maybe it will finally get through people's brains
[Me : Actually, I don't want you to re-copy this and repost it somewhere else,
or do it, but not on Quizilla, I want you guys to tell people about this
and maybe rate high :]]
[She got it from quizilla]

TEN
And if you open a bulletin and it says something like
"repost this in 100 seconds or a ghost will rape your dog tonight,"
QUIT BEING A FKING MORON
[Me : And thank you for reading this and maybe
tell people about this/rate high, so everyone can
read this and know how stupid some are :]
P to the S, do NOT pass this on,`
just tell people about this. I want as many people as possible
to read this.]

Im Not saying that i agree with all of them, i just found them funny... sorta.

1. I feel sick

2. Im thinking about something way too much

3. I dont want saturday to come [some of you know why]

4. My parents hate me, and i know itttt

5. I failed 2 tests

6. I think my friend Brooke is mad at me

7. Theres a rumor going around school about me and my friendsss

8. Nate got put into my writing class [I hate him soo much, and he hates me even more now]

9. I think everyone hates me except for about 5 peoplee

10. I complain too much

11. I climbed a tree again today, and almost fell off

12. I have a headache

13. Things arent going right lately

14. Once things start seeming to be going well, things start getting bad again

15. I miss Chelsey and Chris

16. I feel like me and all my friends are growing farther apart

17. Everytime i get another chainmail thing, i get even MORE mad

If i start yelling at you or something, please dont be mad at me. Im just not in a good mood right now.

P.S. I just got done yelling at someone for sending me chainmail. =/

=/

it was fun.

me and geoff walked home from school with eachother [like we always do, cause we live by each other].

and we stopped at the park.

and he climbed the tree first.

and so i climbed it.

x]

i almost fell off though! D;

anywayss.

the hard part was getting off.

geoff just jumped off.

and told me to jump and that he'd catch me.

but i didnt trust him.

so i had to find a way down.

and it took me like 10 minutes to get down.

x]

yeah

but it was funnn.

and this is for the andnandandnandandand thinggg...

me and james wore the same jeans today! ;D ahaha. we both wore our black jeans. x] [yes, theyre the exact same.. we bought them at the same store, same section [girls section of course], so yeah. theyre the exact samee. xD